well, i did not have a great day today.. i had an interview with the placement staff and they told me that i need to get clarity about the profile and as well as about the industry details.
It has kept me thinking all day about where i went wrong or i just need to use different words!!! i have been thinking all day and been a bit anxious although that does not serve any purpose. I may also have to change my dissertation topic because airlines is again what i chose. I am lost. It's disturbing me, yes. I do not know if i am the only one lost by the way!!!
And by the way, Ishmeet Singh, the boy who won the voice of India title, 19 year old in all and entire life ahead of him, drowned in Maldives today!!! He died!!! Imagine. Did he not have any plans??? Did he not have confusions?? why did he have to die? but he did? with all his problems, anxieties and apprehensions!!
even i am apprehensive, i have anxieties and issues, but the good news is, I am alive and as long as I am alive, nothing is really as big as death. No matter what happens, i'l always have a reason to be happy..
i am alive
god bless ishmeet wherever he's gone!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
i promise
I need to make some promises to myself, so here is my first submission:-
I promise myself to
Always think big and let my imagination go wild to find what is the right thing to do. It takes the same amount of energy to think big as it does to think small. I will not bind myself in constraints of why it cannot be done. I will make big goals for myself even if they sound unreasonable to start with and if i have enough passion, I am sure i will achieve them.
Focus on how my goals can be achieved rather than why they cannot be achieved. How i feel and what results come out depend on the type of questions i ask of myself.So once i have decided on the goal and I am sure i want to do it because i will love doing and it will benefit people, I will find a way or make one.
Never allow myself to be bogged down by criticism. People will always criticize my efforts because everything could be done in a better way, after all and as long as they are not doing it, they will always be eager to find faults. It's just okay. I must remind myself that "if you want to avoid criticism, say nothing, do nothing, be nothing"
Set examples of extraordinary human behavior. If I see myself as someone people can look up to, it is immense responsibility and strength of character. It means not taking short cuts and doing what is right, consistently. I will always do the right thing and will admit my mistake whenever i make one. For example, I am happy today that i got out of the bus to make way for someone in the junior batch, coz after all, it was their bus
this is my first list of promises and i will make more.
bye now, gotta read!!!
I promise myself to
Always think big and let my imagination go wild to find what is the right thing to do. It takes the same amount of energy to think big as it does to think small. I will not bind myself in constraints of why it cannot be done. I will make big goals for myself even if they sound unreasonable to start with and if i have enough passion, I am sure i will achieve them.
Focus on how my goals can be achieved rather than why they cannot be achieved. How i feel and what results come out depend on the type of questions i ask of myself.So once i have decided on the goal and I am sure i want to do it because i will love doing and it will benefit people, I will find a way or make one.
Never allow myself to be bogged down by criticism. People will always criticize my efforts because everything could be done in a better way, after all and as long as they are not doing it, they will always be eager to find faults. It's just okay. I must remind myself that "if you want to avoid criticism, say nothing, do nothing, be nothing"
Set examples of extraordinary human behavior. If I see myself as someone people can look up to, it is immense responsibility and strength of character. It means not taking short cuts and doing what is right, consistently. I will always do the right thing and will admit my mistake whenever i make one. For example, I am happy today that i got out of the bus to make way for someone in the junior batch, coz after all, it was their bus
this is my first list of promises and i will make more.
bye now, gotta read!!!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
and they lived pretending ever after...
i think there is a great disease affecting man and womankind...they pretend a lot...couples pretend to love each other when there is nothing left between them...they pretend that everything will be all right, employees pretend to love their jobs because they think they are not worth anything else or they are plain lazy to move their ass and do something about it, people pretend to be friends when they are actually nothing more than acquaintance or a colleague, i wonder why.
i wonder why people find it so hard to face facts and be real. Let me give an example. I love my mother for what she is. She is not a very smart lady and i love her because she is what she is and does not pretend to be smart. I know how she will behave and i like it or not, she will be that way.
So is the case with other people. People who are the way they are, are not liked by people who live by pretense. Idiots, them all. They say something, feel something, do something else. Sheer pain wherever.
If you are not my friend, do not pretend to be. Relax and take it easy. Life is a series of chapters and we are probably just a small chapter and if we are not a match, you will go your way and i will go mine. Whats wrong in that. Do not gimme crap.
About friends, i tell you. Friends are people who think of you, who admire and care. They stay in touch wherever they are, even if not frequently, but you feel their presence. They do not talk in superficial terms. They are real people, at least my friends, although I have very few. I have become brutal with pretense and superficial behavior and I will become even more blunt with time.
Just be what you are, please. I may not like you and you may hate me...but that's okay. we are not a match, as simple as that. Now I am hungry and need to go for dinner...bye
i wonder why people find it so hard to face facts and be real. Let me give an example. I love my mother for what she is. She is not a very smart lady and i love her because she is what she is and does not pretend to be smart. I know how she will behave and i like it or not, she will be that way.
So is the case with other people. People who are the way they are, are not liked by people who live by pretense. Idiots, them all. They say something, feel something, do something else. Sheer pain wherever.
If you are not my friend, do not pretend to be. Relax and take it easy. Life is a series of chapters and we are probably just a small chapter and if we are not a match, you will go your way and i will go mine. Whats wrong in that. Do not gimme crap.
About friends, i tell you. Friends are people who think of you, who admire and care. They stay in touch wherever they are, even if not frequently, but you feel their presence. They do not talk in superficial terms. They are real people, at least my friends, although I have very few. I have become brutal with pretense and superficial behavior and I will become even more blunt with time.
Just be what you are, please. I may not like you and you may hate me...but that's okay. we are not a match, as simple as that. Now I am hungry and need to go for dinner...bye
courtesy kunal
I am dedicating this post to Kunal Agrawal, who sent this wonderful mail to the team and I think it is beautiful and worth all the praise for his effort....thanks Kunal, it's efforts like these which make life worth living, in fact it's always the intangibles that matter..productizing them as our professors will tell us, is just to make life more convenient and easy to understand...hope i understand what i have just written...
cheers Kunal..here is his mail..
Dear All,
It was indeed a pleasure being a part of the team irrespective of the outcome. The positive outcome added cream to the cake Congratulations for that.
Not undermining the efforts of anyone, I would like to recall and thank the following people for their unique contribution that added to the memories that I will cherish:
1. Sheeba for giving me a slap – truly deserved
2. Chidiya – for letting me flirt with her and for her tolerance
3. Amar – for leading the team and pulling it off on the last day
4. Santosh – For the role play and his pleasing the aunty and his unique comments – 2nd bus stop par pahunch gayee, maal lag rahe hai anuty
5. Ameya – for his sweet style of eve teasing – Veeeeeeerrrrrrryyyyyyyy Slow and Decent
6. Divjot – for his words “OUR NGO”
7. Shruti Bidappa – We all know you that are intelligent and creative and got yet another chance to see that through the ad – many thanks
8. Urvashi – For being there till morning and through the entire experience – especially deserted/ troubled look when she was sitting with shruti in the corridors at 4.00 am thinking for 2 hours……………..
9. Pranay – The ad director of the movie and bringing in the unique effect of eve teasing “The fart effect”………..lol
10. Ann Mathews – always sweet and consistent in her contribution and for effective planning exercise with Shruti
11. Arshdeep, Amit, Vaibhav – for their contribution in the brief and the discussion and Arshdeep – giving his piece of mind to Ameya …….
12. Roly & Rachna & Prakash – for briefing us, directing our thoughts from time to time
Cheers,
Kunal Agrawal
cheers Kunal..here is his mail..
Dear All,
It was indeed a pleasure being a part of the team irrespective of the outcome. The positive outcome added cream to the cake Congratulations for that.
Not undermining the efforts of anyone, I would like to recall and thank the following people for their unique contribution that added to the memories that I will cherish:
1. Sheeba for giving me a slap – truly deserved
2. Chidiya – for letting me flirt with her and for her tolerance
3. Amar – for leading the team and pulling it off on the last day
4. Santosh – For the role play and his pleasing the aunty and his unique comments – 2nd bus stop par pahunch gayee, maal lag rahe hai anuty
5. Ameya – for his sweet style of eve teasing – Veeeeeeerrrrrrryyyyyyyy Slow and Decent
6. Divjot – for his words “OUR NGO”
7. Shruti Bidappa – We all know you that are intelligent and creative and got yet another chance to see that through the ad – many thanks
8. Urvashi – For being there till morning and through the entire experience – especially deserted/ troubled look when she was sitting with shruti in the corridors at 4.00 am thinking for 2 hours……………..
9. Pranay – The ad director of the movie and bringing in the unique effect of eve teasing “The fart effect”………..lol
10. Ann Mathews – always sweet and consistent in her contribution and for effective planning exercise with Shruti
11. Arshdeep, Amit, Vaibhav – for their contribution in the brief and the discussion and Arshdeep – giving his piece of mind to Ameya …….
12. Roly & Rachna & Prakash – for briefing us, directing our thoughts from time to time
Cheers,
Kunal Agrawal
Saturday, July 19, 2008
my standards, my responsibility!
today was a very interesting day and worth dissecting to understand what the hell went wrong, because something went wrong and i screwed up...
starting last night, we had 2 presentations to do, channel management and imc ad campaign against eve teasing. I was the head of the agency making the eve teasing campaign with a team of 17 people.
Now, we started with the IMC work as we started brainstorming at around at 10 and I called the team and we started discussing. We spent a long time in understanding what the problem was. I asked the creative team to keep thinking simultaneously and once the client servicing team did their job which did to take them more than an hour, account planning and creative was a whole night's job!!!
Man!!we worked till early morning and i could not take it after the video shoot at 530 in the morning and that's when i decided to go and sleep for some time before the presentations.
In this while, I did not contribute to making the channel management ppt but saw it and it would have been okay if someone presented it...but....i woke up at 1030 in the morning..and i was shocked...i hated myself for missing the presentations for channel management...and not being there to finish the IMC work till the end because i was the leader of the team and it was my responsibility.
the mail said:
Guys,
I am resigning as the leader of this group. I do not think I deserve to be.
I felt that i did not deserve it and i will not take it. I am not exactly unhappy with what i did because I will not take what i deserve. However, I could handle the role well by assigning team responsibilities and delegating work, something that I did not plan probably because no one had any idea how we would go about it.
But as per me....a leader must
see to it that the task is finished to the end
he must support the team
provide direction
Maintain order
These are the first responsibilities and cannot be traded for. I will conduct a proper survey to find out what leadership means to people.
Another mail is sent to my channel management team apologizing and expressing embarrassment. It was embarrassing and shows irresponsibility and this is something i never expect from myself.
My standards, my responsibility. I can say my room mates did not wake me up but they are not responsible, it's me.
By the way, I landed in time for IMC and we won!! WOw, however, i found it hard to enjoy that all through the day...because of what happened in the morning. It will never ever happen again.
By the way, had a great time after coming back, met some new people and went out to a lounge-buddha lounge and had fun..spent about 100 Durhams...imagine...
by the way...have slept for only 4-5 hours in 30 hours...so going to sleep now...
the gist is I see myself as a leader and it is immense responsibility. I need to understand what do people think is a leader and how can I lead better? Today was a learning day for me and I will always stand by what i learnt...
sleeping now..
starting last night, we had 2 presentations to do, channel management and imc ad campaign against eve teasing. I was the head of the agency making the eve teasing campaign with a team of 17 people.
Now, we started with the IMC work as we started brainstorming at around at 10 and I called the team and we started discussing. We spent a long time in understanding what the problem was. I asked the creative team to keep thinking simultaneously and once the client servicing team did their job which did to take them more than an hour, account planning and creative was a whole night's job!!!
Man!!we worked till early morning and i could not take it after the video shoot at 530 in the morning and that's when i decided to go and sleep for some time before the presentations.
In this while, I did not contribute to making the channel management ppt but saw it and it would have been okay if someone presented it...but....i woke up at 1030 in the morning..and i was shocked...i hated myself for missing the presentations for channel management...and not being there to finish the IMC work till the end because i was the leader of the team and it was my responsibility.
the mail said:
Guys,
I am resigning as the leader of this group. I do not think I deserve to be.
I felt that i did not deserve it and i will not take it. I am not exactly unhappy with what i did because I will not take what i deserve. However, I could handle the role well by assigning team responsibilities and delegating work, something that I did not plan probably because no one had any idea how we would go about it.
But as per me....a leader must
see to it that the task is finished to the end
he must support the team
provide direction
Maintain order
These are the first responsibilities and cannot be traded for. I will conduct a proper survey to find out what leadership means to people.
Another mail is sent to my channel management team apologizing and expressing embarrassment. It was embarrassing and shows irresponsibility and this is something i never expect from myself.
My standards, my responsibility. I can say my room mates did not wake me up but they are not responsible, it's me.
By the way, I landed in time for IMC and we won!! WOw, however, i found it hard to enjoy that all through the day...because of what happened in the morning. It will never ever happen again.
By the way, had a great time after coming back, met some new people and went out to a lounge-buddha lounge and had fun..spent about 100 Durhams...imagine...
by the way...have slept for only 4-5 hours in 30 hours...so going to sleep now...
the gist is I see myself as a leader and it is immense responsibility. I need to understand what do people think is a leader and how can I lead better? Today was a learning day for me and I will always stand by what i learnt...
sleeping now..
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
happiness, enthusiasm, love, pride
you know what. I am not feeling great today, I cannot clearly articulate what is bothering me exactly but there are quite a number of things. Let me try, the weather, lack of mobility in Dubai and blah blah blah...how does it matter and who gives a damn!!!!
but tell you what, there is a brand i have consciously or unconsciously created called amarocks and when i tell people i am not feeling well or dejected, they say no you cannot get sad- amar rocks..yeah right...
i guess i am just too complicated. why the hell do i have to question everything that goes on and try to reach the depth of everything...some things should just be left that way, isn't it? again a question!!!!
anyways, i am sure this is temporary and i will be fine in a while coz i have assumed it to be my responsibility to spread happiness, enthusiasm, love and pride. How can i evade my duty? i cannot and i will not. As far as feeling dull is concerned, i guess, i need some more planning of the routine and try and get some people along who may like to join me in the adventure. Yes, i need to work a little more harder in creating an experience out of this city within the constraints of money and time...yeah...
what exactly am i feeling right now? i'l skip that for now....let me just do the next thing that comes to my mind without questioning why?!!!
good night world!!
but tell you what, there is a brand i have consciously or unconsciously created called amarocks and when i tell people i am not feeling well or dejected, they say no you cannot get sad- amar rocks..yeah right...
i guess i am just too complicated. why the hell do i have to question everything that goes on and try to reach the depth of everything...some things should just be left that way, isn't it? again a question!!!!
anyways, i am sure this is temporary and i will be fine in a while coz i have assumed it to be my responsibility to spread happiness, enthusiasm, love and pride. How can i evade my duty? i cannot and i will not. As far as feeling dull is concerned, i guess, i need some more planning of the routine and try and get some people along who may like to join me in the adventure. Yes, i need to work a little more harder in creating an experience out of this city within the constraints of money and time...yeah...
what exactly am i feeling right now? i'l skip that for now....let me just do the next thing that comes to my mind without questioning why?!!!
good night world!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
my take at Dubai!!
well, it's a strange place and if i try and put it in the language of consumer behaviour, the key consumer insight is people are anything but rational. they do not operate from logic and they do not even operate from emotion. what the hell do they operate from? i wonder.
i have been here for over 20 days now and i tell you what. I find it very hard to fathom whats going on. Imagine marriages being a regular affair and pornography a cultural issue!! i mean what!!! well i have also heard the this is the most liberal emirate in the UAE, which is good.
The good thing is that the city is pretty hip and cosmopolitan and you get to see a lot of people from many nationalities around the world. Europeans on sheikhzaeed road, in malls, people with black, white, wheatish all sorts of skin. I like multiculturalism and living with so many different people who have a different point of veiw than mine. It's great that way.
I would like to visit a few other emirates before i move on to work, i am sure there will be somthing new to expose myself to. Another good thing is also that we are getting to understand that this also exists. In a human society where people look towards being liberal, open and ready for new experiences, here is a set of people who beleive what they are doing is the only thing which is right and you are kinda even scared to even talk to them. I am.
yea, what else. i'l continue to exlore and enjoy myself no matter what happens. I do not want to hurt anybody but yea, why people do what they do and if it's the best thing for them to do to improve their lives will always be a subject i am and will be inclined towards and this will get me to keep asking and keep probing.
I am either getting used to the weather or the weather is getting bored of sticking me inside, I have started to move out more often than when i came here.
by the way, i went to ski subai which is a wonderful skiing destination and snowpark(for those who do not know skiing) in the middle of mall of emirates. we had quite a lot of fun and then it was a F.I.L.E (FIRST IN LIFETIME EXPERIENCE) a new acronym i created today.
have fun till next time..love amar
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