my standards, my responsibility!

today was a very interesting day and worth dissecting to understand what the hell went wrong, because something went wrong and i screwed up...

starting last night, we had 2 presentations to do, channel management and imc ad campaign against eve teasing. I was the head of the agency making the eve teasing campaign with a team of 17 people.

Now, we started with the IMC work as we started brainstorming at around at 10 and I called the team and we started discussing. We spent a long time in understanding what the problem was. I asked the creative team to keep thinking simultaneously and once the client servicing team did their job which did to take them more than an hour, account planning and creative was a whole night's job!!!

Man!!we worked till early morning and i could not take it after the video shoot at 530 in the morning and that's when i decided to go and sleep for some time before the presentations.

In this while, I did not contribute to making the channel management ppt but saw it and it would have been okay if someone presented it...but....i woke up at 1030 in the morning..and i was shocked...i hated myself for missing the presentations for channel management...and not being there to finish the IMC work till the end because i was the leader of the team and it was my responsibility.

the mail said:

Guys,

I am resigning as the leader of this group. I do not think I deserve to be.

I felt that i did not deserve it and i will not take it. I am not exactly unhappy with what i did because I will not take what i deserve. However, I could handle the role well by assigning team responsibilities and delegating work, something that I did not plan probably because no one had any idea how we would go about it.

But as per me....a leader must

see to it that the task is finished to the end
he must support the team
provide direction
Maintain order

These are the first responsibilities and cannot be traded for. I will conduct a proper survey to find out what leadership means to people.

Another mail is sent to my channel management team apologizing and expressing embarrassment. It was embarrassing and shows irresponsibility and this is something i never expect from myself.

My standards, my responsibility. I can say my room mates did not wake me up but they are not responsible, it's me.

By the way, I landed in time for IMC and we won!! WOw, however, i found it hard to enjoy that all through the day...because of what happened in the morning. It will never ever happen again.

By the way, had a great time after coming back, met some new people and went out to a lounge-buddha lounge and had fun..spent about 100 Durhams...imagine...

by the way...have slept for only 4-5 hours in 30 hours...so going to sleep now...

the gist is I see myself as a leader and it is immense responsibility. I need to understand what do people think is a leader and how can I lead better? Today was a learning day for me and I will always stand by what i learnt...

sleeping now..

happiness, enthusiasm, love, pride

you know what. I am not feeling great today, I cannot clearly articulate what is bothering me exactly but there are quite a number of things. Let me try, the weather, lack of mobility in Dubai and blah blah blah...how does it matter and who gives a damn!!!!

but tell you what, there is a brand i have consciously or unconsciously created called amarocks and when i tell people i am not feeling well or dejected, they say no you cannot get sad- amar rocks..yeah right...

i guess i am just too complicated. why the hell do i have to question everything that goes on and try to reach the depth of everything...some things should just be left that way, isn't it? again a question!!!!

anyways, i am sure this is temporary and i will be fine in a while coz i have assumed it to be my responsibility to spread happiness, enthusiasm, love and pride. How can i evade my duty? i cannot and i will not. As far as feeling dull is concerned, i guess, i need some more planning of the routine and try and get some people along who may like to join me in the adventure. Yes, i need to work a little more harder in creating an experience out of this city within the constraints of money and time...yeah...

what exactly am i feeling right now? i'l skip that for now....let me just do the next thing that comes to my mind without questioning why?!!!

good night world!!

my take at Dubai!!

well, it's a strange place and if i try and put it in the language of consumer behaviour, the key consumer insight is people are anything but rational. they do not operate from logic and they do not even operate from emotion. what the hell do they operate from? i wonder.

i have been here for over 20 days now and i tell you what. I find it very hard to fathom whats going on. Imagine marriages being a regular affair and pornography a cultural issue!! i mean what!!! well i have also heard the this is the most liberal emirate in the UAE, which is good.

The good thing is that the city is pretty hip and cosmopolitan and you get to see a lot of people from many nationalities around the world. Europeans on sheikhzaeed road, in malls, people with black, white, wheatish all sorts of skin. I like multiculturalism and living with so many different people who have a different point of veiw than mine. It's great that way.

I would like to visit a few other emirates before i move on to work, i am sure there will be somthing new to expose myself to. Another good thing is also that we are getting to understand that this also exists. In a human society where people look towards being liberal, open and ready for new experiences, here is a set of people who beleive what they are doing is the only thing which is right and you are kinda even scared to even talk to them. I am.

yea, what else. i'l continue to exlore and enjoy myself no matter what happens. I do not want to hurt anybody but yea, why people do what they do and if it's the best thing for them to do to improve their lives will always be a subject i am and will be inclined towards and this will get me to keep asking and keep probing.

I am either getting used to the weather or the weather is getting bored of sticking me inside, I have started to move out more often than when i came here.

by the way, i went to ski subai which is a wonderful skiing destination and snowpark(for those who do not know skiing) in the middle of mall of emirates. we had quite a lot of fun and then it was a F.I.L.E (FIRST IN LIFETIME EXPERIENCE) a new acronym i created today.

have fun till next time..love amar