today was not a very interesting day. First marketing of financial services where we are beig taught export import documentation and then big tme number cruncing which i could not handle in MCP and walked out...
so what was good??? i asked this batch mate of mine that he should learn all this and help me once we get into the industry and he said... would i be around to help you then and he flipped his fingers and said...tu to aise upar chala jaega!!!!
i loved it!!!
somehow the respect that i have got in this place has never occured to me before, thankfully i have been able to make a difference at many times and touched people with a true heart, yes my heart is clean, if u think i love you, i do.
people expect a lot from me and i will have to deliver....either by finding a way or making one!!! thanks for the compliment brother
Friday, August 22, 2008
Getting upset is a wase of time and energy!!!
well, all i will say is, don't get sad. Let's face reality where no one gives a damn!!! no one. You have got to thrive out here and show the world what you have got!!!
Sometimes i feel like getting sad, of course i am a human being and i allow emotions to over power me at times......consider the choice of construction here. I allow emotions to over power me, they don't unless i allow them. But I tell you what, there would be people who might care a bit and will ask you how you are doing, but then they have got their own lives to take care of.
i have been through horrendous times when i becaame a complete non-entity and no one cared if i existed. yes, my parents, my sister and my girlfriend did. they cried then all the time. But did I help them by losing control over myself?????? Imagine, they love me and they want me to be happy and take care of myself.
There might be exceptional circumstances where you cannot do anything but eventually you ahve to come out of it and get on with life. people want to be with people who make them happy. they just want to chill out!!! yeah.
And then, till we are alive, we have every reason to be happy. Let the problems be, they are after all a part of life, isn't it? the only people who do not have problems are DEAD. if that's what you want to be, your choice and again who cares????????? and who gives a damn!!!! Like one of my acquintances who likes to say, how do i care!!!!!
they don't care. most of them, don;t get worked up about it.
Having said all that, i am extremely grateful to people who care and who love me. Life has been very kind to me and at this time, there are at least 5 people in this world, who care for me and love me.....and i love them as well...
do not get upset and worked up. make your presence felt....speak to be heard and stand up to get noticed. Today is a once in a life time opportunity. Make the most of it and keep killing those problems one by one. They are the juice of life.
Enjoy the company of people you love and who are genuine, you will know, notice everything they don't say...body talks..
be happy, be joyous, be sexy and be grateful...
Sometimes i feel like getting sad, of course i am a human being and i allow emotions to over power me at times......consider the choice of construction here. I allow emotions to over power me, they don't unless i allow them. But I tell you what, there would be people who might care a bit and will ask you how you are doing, but then they have got their own lives to take care of.
i have been through horrendous times when i becaame a complete non-entity and no one cared if i existed. yes, my parents, my sister and my girlfriend did. they cried then all the time. But did I help them by losing control over myself?????? Imagine, they love me and they want me to be happy and take care of myself.
There might be exceptional circumstances where you cannot do anything but eventually you ahve to come out of it and get on with life. people want to be with people who make them happy. they just want to chill out!!! yeah.
And then, till we are alive, we have every reason to be happy. Let the problems be, they are after all a part of life, isn't it? the only people who do not have problems are DEAD. if that's what you want to be, your choice and again who cares????????? and who gives a damn!!!! Like one of my acquintances who likes to say, how do i care!!!!!
they don't care. most of them, don;t get worked up about it.
Having said all that, i am extremely grateful to people who care and who love me. Life has been very kind to me and at this time, there are at least 5 people in this world, who care for me and love me.....and i love them as well...
do not get upset and worked up. make your presence felt....speak to be heard and stand up to get noticed. Today is a once in a life time opportunity. Make the most of it and keep killing those problems one by one. They are the juice of life.
Enjoy the company of people you love and who are genuine, you will know, notice everything they don't say...body talks..
be happy, be joyous, be sexy and be grateful...
morals and rules!!!
I hate rules, basically i hate anything that has a constraint on the way i would like to live my life. So, I hate rules. I hate morals also, they are freaking so difficult to understand to start with and then they constraint my life so much.
who decides what is moral and what is not? my answer is for me, my conscience does. but my conscience is a very complicated creature, it is itself very confused. Part of my body, i don't know which, wants something and then there is this obstruse thing called conscience which tells me it is not the right thing to do.
It disturbs me because i don't understand all this and there are so many things i cannot and do not do in the name of morals and conscience and rules. It hinders me from living my purpose every passing day.
Primarily I will not do things that amount to disrespecting a human being because respect is my primary value and i am pretty clear that it is unlikely yo happen in future.
i do not accept anybody rules anyways. i do not accept society's rules either. i have not followed the rules of my religion because they did not make sense to me.
now i have evolved to having a dispute with my own rules. i really think there is something wrong somewhere. how do i go about revising them because i have no one else to consult!!!!! the problem lies within me!!!! what will happen is that i may end up messing with my rules and testing the efficacy of them with minimum risk.
yeah. i am my greatest friend and enemy and as a friend and a lover of myself, i want myself to have everything that makes me happy and i promise to help myself...
coz with all your complications and your absurdities, i love you jugnu :)
who decides what is moral and what is not? my answer is for me, my conscience does. but my conscience is a very complicated creature, it is itself very confused. Part of my body, i don't know which, wants something and then there is this obstruse thing called conscience which tells me it is not the right thing to do.
It disturbs me because i don't understand all this and there are so many things i cannot and do not do in the name of morals and conscience and rules. It hinders me from living my purpose every passing day.
Primarily I will not do things that amount to disrespecting a human being because respect is my primary value and i am pretty clear that it is unlikely yo happen in future.
i do not accept anybody rules anyways. i do not accept society's rules either. i have not followed the rules of my religion because they did not make sense to me.
now i have evolved to having a dispute with my own rules. i really think there is something wrong somewhere. how do i go about revising them because i have no one else to consult!!!!! the problem lies within me!!!! what will happen is that i may end up messing with my rules and testing the efficacy of them with minimum risk.
yeah. i am my greatest friend and enemy and as a friend and a lover of myself, i want myself to have everything that makes me happy and i promise to help myself...
coz with all your complications and your absurdities, i love you jugnu :)
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Rakshabandhan
Today is Rakshabandhan and it is a small gesture of love that is tied at the hand of the brother by his sister and this is the only day so far to commemorate their relationship...
well, i missed that gesture today. I have no clue how good a brother i have been to my sister, but she has been a extremely caring sister to me. I wish i could contribute more, hate the word wish!!! I wan to pledge that I will do whatever I can to make her life better and more enjoyable always, will be around, no matter what the geography. I love my sister. She is one of the most genuine and simple people around.
Happy Rakhi, meetu
well, i missed that gesture today. I have no clue how good a brother i have been to my sister, but she has been a extremely caring sister to me. I wish i could contribute more, hate the word wish!!! I wan to pledge that I will do whatever I can to make her life better and more enjoyable always, will be around, no matter what the geography. I love my sister. She is one of the most genuine and simple people around.
Happy Rakhi, meetu
Monday, August 11, 2008
the QUALITY of my problems
well, I seem to have problems and confusions these days...the topic of my dissertation is right or not? which industry vertical should i look at? would consulting be best for me or advertising? well, well, well...
and these problems if they are tend to make me anxious....should they? I belong to a country where right now 3-4 percent people have access to internet and I am writing this in my blog by the way. More than half the population is effectively illiterate and again at the most 5 percent can speak good English. I am writing this in English and I am proud of my writing and speaking skills in English. There are hundreds of below poverty line people who do not have access to 2 square meals a day.
How many people have heard of what the hell is a dissertation? How many people get to venture out of their India and explore Singapore and Dubai and saying I do not like Dubai!!!!
Well, I am just saying that everyone has problems and they are just a part of life and an excellent life has excellent problems. The QUALITY OF MY PROBLEMS IS TOP CLASS and I should be thankful for them as i work towards solving one at a time....
ROCKKKKKKK ON
and these problems if they are tend to make me anxious....should they? I belong to a country where right now 3-4 percent people have access to internet and I am writing this in my blog by the way. More than half the population is effectively illiterate and again at the most 5 percent can speak good English. I am writing this in English and I am proud of my writing and speaking skills in English. There are hundreds of below poverty line people who do not have access to 2 square meals a day.
How many people have heard of what the hell is a dissertation? How many people get to venture out of their India and explore Singapore and Dubai and saying I do not like Dubai!!!!
Well, I am just saying that everyone has problems and they are just a part of life and an excellent life has excellent problems. The QUALITY OF MY PROBLEMS IS TOP CLASS and I should be thankful for them as i work towards solving one at a time....
ROCKKKKKKK ON
Sunday, August 10, 2008
finding new fields to conquer!!
MBA was a goal I had for a long time....i needed to move forward in life and take up managerial responsibilities and lead people....right, yeah...fine
well, I will be an MBA pretty soon and so what now? what exactly do i want to do. good I have a purpose, but how the hell do I translate that into professional goals? what do I want to achieve exactly and how will I do it...
how much..by when?
what i need is a professional vision which is broken down to professional goals which will guide my professional career. yes, sunil was right this morning, i want to start on my own within 10-15 years from now, I will. But this is tactics. What is actually need is a strategy, which is where do I want to go from here and how wil I go there?
The definition specs are:
What will I be doing?
Who will I be?
Which industries/verticals will I would like to operate in?
What products/services would I be selling?
So, sit down tomorrow morning first thing and make a document with your professional vision, goals and answers to the questions above?
i need a positioning statement to work on...for example, a church is "the teacher of the word"
what am i????????
well, I will be an MBA pretty soon and so what now? what exactly do i want to do. good I have a purpose, but how the hell do I translate that into professional goals? what do I want to achieve exactly and how will I do it...
how much..by when?
what i need is a professional vision which is broken down to professional goals which will guide my professional career. yes, sunil was right this morning, i want to start on my own within 10-15 years from now, I will. But this is tactics. What is actually need is a strategy, which is where do I want to go from here and how wil I go there?
The definition specs are:
What will I be doing?
Who will I be?
Which industries/verticals will I would like to operate in?
What products/services would I be selling?
So, sit down tomorrow morning first thing and make a document with your professional vision, goals and answers to the questions above?
i need a positioning statement to work on...for example, a church is "the teacher of the word"
what am i????????
Saturday, August 09, 2008
the dude culture!!!
yeah baby, this was pending for some time, my thoughts on the dude culture..
so what do I mean about the dude culture? I refer to a generation of people who are absolutely more modern and smarter than I am. Again, it is my opinion, so allow me the margin of error.
i feel that we are losing on the essence of relationships and getting very perfunctory and circumstantial in our behavior. I do not like being addressed dude, i don't. I do not think it stands for anything hep and happening. I just think that the person calling me dude either does not give a damn about what my name is or does not give a damn about what would i like to be called as. She/He has no interest in what the dude's life is all about and is merely concerned about his/her own imminent interest.
we are losing the depth of relationships, if we had any. what's the point, talk about work, make pointless noise and laugh at things sometimes you do not even understand and move on....
i get irritated and i am highly irritated with people who approach me when they have something to get out of me and else how do i care!!!!! get lost, i will have no time for people like these....i used to be choosy about people and i will be even more selective.
It's okay if i have to stay in the company of books, they give me intellectual stimulation if nothing else, i know the people i want to be with and spend time with...if they are there, good enough, if they are not, all right.
i do not like the dude culture, i like to care and be cared for....either it's there or not...do not try to fool me...your character makes loud noises no matter what you try to tell me...
yes, i will continue to be follow my purpose of spreading happiness, enthusiasm, love and pride at every chance until I am pushed afar...
good night
so what do I mean about the dude culture? I refer to a generation of people who are absolutely more modern and smarter than I am. Again, it is my opinion, so allow me the margin of error.
i feel that we are losing on the essence of relationships and getting very perfunctory and circumstantial in our behavior. I do not like being addressed dude, i don't. I do not think it stands for anything hep and happening. I just think that the person calling me dude either does not give a damn about what my name is or does not give a damn about what would i like to be called as. She/He has no interest in what the dude's life is all about and is merely concerned about his/her own imminent interest.
we are losing the depth of relationships, if we had any. what's the point, talk about work, make pointless noise and laugh at things sometimes you do not even understand and move on....
i get irritated and i am highly irritated with people who approach me when they have something to get out of me and else how do i care!!!!! get lost, i will have no time for people like these....i used to be choosy about people and i will be even more selective.
It's okay if i have to stay in the company of books, they give me intellectual stimulation if nothing else, i know the people i want to be with and spend time with...if they are there, good enough, if they are not, all right.
i do not like the dude culture, i like to care and be cared for....either it's there or not...do not try to fool me...your character makes loud noises no matter what you try to tell me...
yes, i will continue to be follow my purpose of spreading happiness, enthusiasm, love and pride at every chance until I am pushed afar...
good night
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