every single minute is precious

my purpose says there is no tomorrow and it will be true one of these days!!!

every singl minute is precious and it is costing tremendous amount of money. Not just money, it is costing me family time and it is costing not just me!!! The opportunity costs are stupendous!!!.

And what the hell have i been doing for the past few days???? I have been wasting time uselessly. THERE IS JUST NO TIME TO WASTE, NOT A MINUTE

if every single minute is not being used in my growth and development, it is a waste of tiime. I will not sleep over 5-6 hours a day at the most and finish everything that's pending and it's quite a lot.

now read news for the interview and stop irritating me and do not let this crap like dental problems to bug you. there are more important things in life to take care of. remember at any time 99% of the things are anyways going right. if you waste your time on 1% that's wrong, your choice!!!!! HOW YOU FEEL IS THE RESULT OF WHAT YOU FOCUS ON. i will take time in the evening to write my gratiude list here.

go spread HELP, seize the day

the future is knocking from all sides...

I must admit that I am bit anxious these days...the future has always been uncertain but this is a very interesting phase, of course interesting is a euphemism!!!

It's like when i graduated and looked for jobs here and there, of course I am in a better place now and companies will come looking for us. But, I will start a new career this time and will take up responsibilities which I cannot see at this time...

i did an MBA because i always saw myself as a leader and i have been able to prove my mettle in the business school by taking many initiatives and successfully running multiple forums and events. Then what am I afraid of? I want to land up where my energies will be put to use and I will be able to create the maximum leverage...wow, that sounds nice whatever that means...

by the way, i really need to get comfortable with where I am heading...Mr Yousouf said do not close the doors open to you and I have taken his advise. I want a marketing job and if i get it, i will succeed at it...i know i do not give a damn if i have to go out in the sun and meet customers, i know i can do anything...i will never get too big for anything...

Actually, i should be pretty comfortable with myself....leaving IT which i do not understand, I can get myself to do anything. Financial services should not be too difficult to understand and anyways, i will not be doing debit and credit, i will be responsible to decide the markets on the basis on ansoff's model and come out with marketing strategies to penetrate the market. wow...i am sure i will succeed

I just want to re-assure myself while writing this thing that I am very good, actually I am excellent, I am the only person in this crowd who started a leader's forum, gave a talk in big picture, organised events in sports and culture, started a kotler series, assumed responsibilities way beyond academics throughout the year....i am a star...i will create value whereever i go...it's for me to decide what's best for me...

just be clear at every step and listen to your body and mind....you will get through...and everything will be fine.....i promise...i will make sure...everything will be fine....

i love you jugnu ;) really, i will take care of you

my dental history

well, there is one thing that I have grown up with, and it is regular visits to dentists throughout my life....Dr. Pradeep Jaina in CP who worked on my denture for years on end and although he used to say that he would work on it till i get married, i got bored after about 7 years and got rid of him...

still it did not end there. I have had to visit doctors in gurgaon, singapore and just now I am coming from a visit in Dubai ;) one of the tooth in which this doc in gurgaon did a root canal in has been damaged and this guy will now put a cap on it!!!!

imagine!!! I am a bit scadalized right now and shocked. imagine, i have got used to those machines and this guy sitting on my head and doing something in my mouse!!! but i want peace right now and meditate for a while to come back to my senses.

got a lot of work pending, hope i do this fast...

okay bye

who is a friend?

i have been elaborately confused in the past and though it will not clear the issue eternally, it will help in identifying what does a friend mean to me...

A friend is a person I would like to be a friend to, which means, be when he/she needs me, like to understand his/her life and stay in touch just because they are special people...these people are original thinkers and not phony by any means. They share my values and love for life....they are what they are, do not have multiple faces.....

So, friendship to me, means being a friend to people i truly like and admire.

I promise my friends will always have the best of me.

i got a compliment!!

today was not a very interesting day. First marketing of financial services where we are beig taught export import documentation and then big tme number cruncing which i could not handle in MCP and walked out...

so what was good??? i asked this batch mate of mine that he should learn all this and help me once we get into the industry and he said... would i be around to help you then and he flipped his fingers and said...tu to aise upar chala jaega!!!!
i loved it!!!

somehow the respect that i have got in this place has never occured to me before, thankfully i have been able to make a difference at many times and touched people with a true heart, yes my heart is clean, if u think i love you, i do.

people expect a lot from me and i will have to deliver....either by finding a way or making one!!! thanks for the compliment brother

Getting upset is a wase of time and energy!!!

well, all i will say is, don't get sad. Let's face reality where no one gives a damn!!! no one. You have got to thrive out here and show the world what you have got!!!

Sometimes i feel like getting sad, of course i am a human being and i allow emotions to over power me at times......consider the choice of construction here. I allow emotions to over power me, they don't unless i allow them. But I tell you what, there would be people who might care a bit and will ask you how you are doing, but then they have got their own lives to take care of.

i have been through horrendous times when i becaame a complete non-entity and no one cared if i existed. yes, my parents, my sister and my girlfriend did. they cried then all the time. But did I help them by losing control over myself?????? Imagine, they love me and they want me to be happy and take care of myself.

There might be exceptional circumstances where you cannot do anything but eventually you ahve to come out of it and get on with life. people want to be with people who make them happy. they just want to chill out!!! yeah.

And then, till we are alive, we have every reason to be happy. Let the problems be, they are after all a part of life, isn't it? the only people who do not have problems are DEAD. if that's what you want to be, your choice and again who cares????????? and who gives a damn!!!! Like one of my acquintances who likes to say, how do i care!!!!!

they don't care. most of them, don;t get worked up about it.

Having said all that, i am extremely grateful to people who care and who love me. Life has been very kind to me and at this time, there are at least 5 people in this world, who care for me and love me.....and i love them as well...

do not get upset and worked up. make your presence felt....speak to be heard and stand up to get noticed. Today is a once in a life time opportunity. Make the most of it and keep killing those problems one by one. They are the juice of life.

Enjoy the company of people you love and who are genuine, you will know, notice everything they don't say...body talks..

be happy, be joyous, be sexy and be grateful...

morals and rules!!!

I hate rules, basically i hate anything that has a constraint on the way i would like to live my life. So, I hate rules. I hate morals also, they are freaking so difficult to understand to start with and then they constraint my life so much.

who decides what is moral and what is not? my answer is for me, my conscience does. but my conscience is a very complicated creature, it is itself very confused. Part of my body, i don't know which, wants something and then there is this obstruse thing called conscience which tells me it is not the right thing to do.

It disturbs me because i don't understand all this and there are so many things i cannot and do not do in the name of morals and conscience and rules. It hinders me from living my purpose every passing day.

Primarily I will not do things that amount to disrespecting a human being because respect is my primary value and i am pretty clear that it is unlikely yo happen in future.

i do not accept anybody rules anyways. i do not accept society's rules either. i have not followed the rules of my religion because they did not make sense to me.

now i have evolved to having a dispute with my own rules. i really think there is something wrong somewhere. how do i go about revising them because i have no one else to consult!!!!! the problem lies within me!!!! what will happen is that i may end up messing with my rules and testing the efficacy of them with minimum risk.

yeah. i am my greatest friend and enemy and as a friend and a lover of myself, i want myself to have everything that makes me happy and i promise to help myself...

coz with all your complications and your absurdities, i love you jugnu :)